release of result
My secondary school life ended with a sad one. The result i got was not up to expectation. Teachers were disappointed in me. Some say i didn't work hard for my english and I didn't make it to the top. Some say i was just unlucky. Some comforted me. In the morning,mr tan called me and told me my results. I knew from the start that i was not going to be the top student. I asked him and true enough, there were 3 other top students. I was just shocked and stood root in place. I didn't know what to reply. I just wanted to break down and cry but i couldn't. I didn't know what to say. I called sinyee and told her about it. She said my result was gd but i didn't think so. How i wished i could break down and cry. I think i had really forgotten how to cry since i had been keeping all the sadness in my heart. I didn't want to go school because i knew that i would get all sorts of sarcastic remarks. I didn't want to go back to the school of misery but i had to face reality. I told my mum about the result and she didn't seem quite happy,neither she seem sad. My dad too. I wanted to ask my sis to take my result slip for me but i knew that i had to get it myself.
And off i go to the sch of misery. I met kenneth on my way to school. I knew i have to keep my sorrows and pretend that everything was okay for me. It was difficult but i managed to pull through it. In school, i saw all my friends. They were already presented in the school hall listening to the school vice principal talk on registriation. I went in and sat down,listening to the talk. I actually could not concentrate on listening to the talk. My mind was in somewhere else. When the names of the top students were called,i just clapped and put on a smile just in case i couldn't hold my sorrow. When my name was called,i really didn't want to go up to the stage but i was forced to. I just walked up. To tell the truth,my hands were suddenly trembling with fear lor. I dared not look at the teachers sia. I knew i had disappointed them. Miss Sim asked me if i had expected this result,i didn't know what to answer. Am i supposed to say no? I managed to say no. She thought that i was happy because i gave a smile. In fact i was not! I wanted to walked out of the hall and never come back to this school ever again. I walked to the side of the hall waiting for all to be announced. I went back to take my result slip. A lot of my friends were so happy with their grades until they cried. As a friend,i wish u guys all the best for the future. Later,i went to thank all the teachers for their hard work they had put in. Many of my teachers commented on my english results which made me feel more sad and gulity. I never saw mdm hayati. I guess that i had no face to see her again. Haiz. I felt cheated. I felt cheated by everything!I felt that the world is looking down on me just because my english is not that gd. No one appreciated my talents. Just wondering what am i living for?
And off i go to the sch of misery. I met kenneth on my way to school. I knew i have to keep my sorrows and pretend that everything was okay for me. It was difficult but i managed to pull through it. In school, i saw all my friends. They were already presented in the school hall listening to the school vice principal talk on registriation. I went in and sat down,listening to the talk. I actually could not concentrate on listening to the talk. My mind was in somewhere else. When the names of the top students were called,i just clapped and put on a smile just in case i couldn't hold my sorrow. When my name was called,i really didn't want to go up to the stage but i was forced to. I just walked up. To tell the truth,my hands were suddenly trembling with fear lor. I dared not look at the teachers sia. I knew i had disappointed them. Miss Sim asked me if i had expected this result,i didn't know what to answer. Am i supposed to say no? I managed to say no. She thought that i was happy because i gave a smile. In fact i was not! I wanted to walked out of the hall and never come back to this school ever again. I walked to the side of the hall waiting for all to be announced. I went back to take my result slip. A lot of my friends were so happy with their grades until they cried. As a friend,i wish u guys all the best for the future. Later,i went to thank all the teachers for their hard work they had put in. Many of my teachers commented on my english results which made me feel more sad and gulity. I never saw mdm hayati. I guess that i had no face to see her again. Haiz. I felt cheated. I felt cheated by everything!I felt that the world is looking down on me just because my english is not that gd. No one appreciated my talents. Just wondering what am i living for?