slpless night

from 7 feb till now,I have been having insomina. I have been awaked in the night as if my world had been turned upside down. I was not able to catch a single wink. The night was so hard to pass. It maybe probably due to the stress of getting the results. Probably there are also other reasons ba. The night was so lonely and quiet as i watched the lively road become lifeless and become lively again. The sounds of the crickets accompanied me throughout the 8hours which i should have spent slping. My bed suddenly felt so warm,usually warm. My legs was very cold even though the blanket was on. I held onto the handphone,hoping miracle will happen but it didn't. I was lying aimlessly on my bed,staring at the blank ceiling. The pain was still there but i guessed i was numbed to it. I could not longer feel it. The feeling of wanting to cry was also there but my eyes were dry. My mind was in a whirl. The pain of headache was so common to me that i felt that it was normal. Sadness was conquering me. It was all that i could feel. Nothing else. Can anyone give me any help to pull me out of this pain?
tml is the release of the o lvl result. I am pretty sure that i will not do that well in my subjects because i didn't put in much efforts in my english. I guess i will be going to disappoint my teachers again,just like what i did for psle. The thought of going back to cckss make me think twice of getting my result because cckss contains all the sad memories that i had. The images of those events will flash through my mind. The thought of it make me feel even more sad.Will i get gd result and put a happy ending to my secondary school life?