the day

The time is up.The day has arrived. I don't know what to do now.I had eariler received an sms from agnes that I can go on the internet to check for the results.OMG~!It's only 6plus in the morning.I thought that I have another 1 or 2 hours to calm myself down but I guess that all the time i have is limited. I sms my friends and ask them to check whereas i myself don't dare to check the results. So many "what if" questions in my head.I don't want to check the results first because of several reasons. Firstly,if the results not that good,i scared my day will be destroyed. Secondly,I am just scared that I will disappoint the teachers and my parents who have been pining high hopes on me.(= pressure). I don't want to check. All my friends who checked have gotten into their first choice or the most second choice. I don't know what to do.Some call me to ask me to check my results while others persuade me to check.I just don't feel like it.I will keep the worst for tonight.Pray hard that i will not disappoint the people i know. I am just scared and I don't think I am going to make it. I never have this strong feeling before.DIE!!