I'm back from school. I never attend my CCA because I was very lethargic,partly due to the medicine that I have to take everyday. I have to ask the doctor to give me a long term MC or else I will be busy writing letters to teachers for not attending CCA. I wanted to practise and be in the SYF competition but I just don't know why I keep feeling sick. I have promised to help out with CO but I haven't went to CO for even once. Life has become upside down in JC. I think I think I'm sick,not only physically,and also mentally sick and tired of this life. I'm not who I used to be. I have changed. Really..
Sometimes I just don't understand what my family members are thinking. Well, at home, I feel that I'm just another stranger that lives in this house. I hardly talks to anyone in my house other than my sis(Sec 3 de). I feel that I have distanted away from them. I no longer feel bonded this family. My dad cares and understand the football betting more than he knows me. All that he does when he come home is to use the computer and study the match. I try to relate to him but I fail to do so. So, I never talk much to him unless I need his signature for school stuff. My mum always says that I never talk to her about personal stuff but each time I talk to her, she never listen. It's just like talking to the wall. She doesn't even listen. Each time the phone rings, I have to report to her who is the caller and what is it for. I feel that it is more like a prison than a home. My second sister is the closest to me in my family. Sometime when she's angry,it's like thunderstorm. My smallest sister is the person in my family that I hated the most. She never called me Bro after the incident when my dad scolded her and did not scold me. She said that my dad was biased. I was damn pissed with her. She don't know how to think for this family. All that she knows is to spend the money and to play computer all the time. She always wants to buy bags. Now she has loads of bags and she never wants to use. She always wastes money on this kind of stuff. She keeps asking money from my mum as if money is free. She always wants to buy all the things that she sees. Can't she look at the conditions of the family!?Can't she think a bit more!? This year, it's her PSLE. She's playing computer every single day from the moment she comes back from school until the time where my dad demands the computer. For those games, she even bought a lot of pre-paid cards. Those cards are damn expensive. They are worth more than my one month of allowances. At least my second sister and I buy things with our own money and we never take extra money from my mum. My mum has been troubling over the money matters. Well, so I never ask my mum for any money to pay my lecture notes. I rather myself suffer. It's tough for me to handle this kind of stuff..
To add on to the problem,someone in our class offended me on Monday. Who does he think he is!?Talk until like want to fight like that!! You think that people are scared of u? U look yourself in the mirror! U will see someone who is so self-centred and thinks that he is the man who can give all the correct answers?ZHI ZHE my foot la!! Only knows how to talk big only~! I promise that I will beat u in all the subjects and make sure u suffer the same state that u have gone through in your secondary school!! And also watch your tone when u talk to people!! I dare you to talk the way to a gangster~! Want to try!? I don't want to hear your stupid voice! It make me have the feeling to PUKE~!
I just came across this message so I copied it here:
May-Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. ?Hardworking. High-spirited.
After voicing out my opinion, I feel better now. I think I want to go and have a rest..update next time..
Note: Please don't tell my family this after reading the post..thanks a lot..
Sometimes I just don't understand what my family members are thinking. Well, at home, I feel that I'm just another stranger that lives in this house. I hardly talks to anyone in my house other than my sis(Sec 3 de). I feel that I have distanted away from them. I no longer feel bonded this family. My dad cares and understand the football betting more than he knows me. All that he does when he come home is to use the computer and study the match. I try to relate to him but I fail to do so. So, I never talk much to him unless I need his signature for school stuff. My mum always says that I never talk to her about personal stuff but each time I talk to her, she never listen. It's just like talking to the wall. She doesn't even listen. Each time the phone rings, I have to report to her who is the caller and what is it for. I feel that it is more like a prison than a home. My second sister is the closest to me in my family. Sometime when she's angry,it's like thunderstorm. My smallest sister is the person in my family that I hated the most. She never called me Bro after the incident when my dad scolded her and did not scold me. She said that my dad was biased. I was damn pissed with her. She don't know how to think for this family. All that she knows is to spend the money and to play computer all the time. She always wants to buy bags. Now she has loads of bags and she never wants to use. She always wastes money on this kind of stuff. She keeps asking money from my mum as if money is free. She always wants to buy all the things that she sees. Can't she look at the conditions of the family!?Can't she think a bit more!? This year, it's her PSLE. She's playing computer every single day from the moment she comes back from school until the time where my dad demands the computer. For those games, she even bought a lot of pre-paid cards. Those cards are damn expensive. They are worth more than my one month of allowances. At least my second sister and I buy things with our own money and we never take extra money from my mum. My mum has been troubling over the money matters. Well, so I never ask my mum for any money to pay my lecture notes. I rather myself suffer. It's tough for me to handle this kind of stuff..
To add on to the problem,someone in our class offended me on Monday. Who does he think he is!?Talk until like want to fight like that!! You think that people are scared of u? U look yourself in the mirror! U will see someone who is so self-centred and thinks that he is the man who can give all the correct answers?ZHI ZHE my foot la!! Only knows how to talk big only~! I promise that I will beat u in all the subjects and make sure u suffer the same state that u have gone through in your secondary school!! And also watch your tone when u talk to people!! I dare you to talk the way to a gangster~! Want to try!? I don't want to hear your stupid voice! It make me have the feeling to PUKE~!
I just came across this message so I copied it here:
May-Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. ?Hardworking. High-spirited.
After voicing out my opinion, I feel better now. I think I want to go and have a rest..update next time..
Note: Please don't tell my family this after reading the post..thanks a lot..