I'm blogging again because I don't have the motivation to do my homework. Somehow work pissed me off. I have been trying to sleep for long hours but I just can't do it. In the past, when I slept at 9pm, I will usually wake up at 11am in the morning if left undisturbed. However, now I will definitely wake up at 2am in the morning. No matter how tired I'm, I just can't close my eyes. I never like this kind of feeling. I think that there are too many matters going through my mind. I have been trying to sort them out but I am still unable to do so. I'm poor at handling such matters and all I need is someone to talk to,someone who doesn't betray me.
Last friday, my mum went to the school Parent-Teacher Meeting. My mum went to meet Mdm Foo, Miss Ang and Miss Chan. Well, all of them gave me pressure. More and more pressure~! Well, that is what makes up my life. I have no choice but to live with it..
On the way back, my mum asked me on the train when am I going to have a girlfriend. That took me by surprise because I didn't expect her to ask me this kind of question. Well, I just told her that it would not be that soon. I told her studies come first in order for me to secure my place in university. Actually, that triggered some of my sad memories but I couldn't show it so I pretended..
On wednesday, in the morning, we had our phototaking. TO CLARIFY THE MATTER, I DON'T LIKE ANY SINGLE ONE OF THE PS MEMBERS AND NEITHER DO I HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH THEM OK? LOL!! I think I have been mistaken by people to be some people who are desperate. LOL!! I'm perfectly normal and do not wish to be involved in such stuff. I didn't know when the photo was taken and guess what!? I didn't look at the camera at all. LOL!! GOing to be ugly again..
at the RJC, I fell asleep during the lecture simply because I was too tired. I couldn't keep my eyes open. Aaron had noticed that I was looking super lethargic in school. I could say that he was sharp. Maybe it was because I was back to the other self of mine where I didn't like to talk at all. I can be solemn and don't talk for the whole day. My temper at those times is really very bad. It may be due to the environment that I have grown up with in primary school. The motto is " You have to fight in order to survive." Well,it seems true as the scar that was caused by a stupid idiot will always be on my arm to remind me of this motto.
Today, I was caught by the PE teacher for having long hair. Well, I went to the barber and the auntie went to cut my hair until ... I was pissed. To add the fuel, my family called me the army boy. I was like... I shouldn't have went there.
I hate the MCP 1 and MCP 2. They are a bunch of pigs, or you guys can say worse than pigs. I hate them~! Now, I'm in JC so I have to change my way of dealing with things. I have to constanty remind myself that I cannot use those methods that I used in CCKSS in AJC. This school is so weird. Nothing exciting happens. Those two pigs think that they are group of smart-alexes and go round calling people names. They should have think of themselves to see what qualities of shit that they possess before calling people names.
My class suddenly seemed so interested to know who Kwok Hoe like and there was a huge commotion about it. As a friend, I will not betray him because I know what the feeling of being betrayed feels like as I have experienced it before. In my view, I think that it's best for him not to reveal it as he will regret if he does so. Well, this kind of relationship stuff is so complicated. I have promised not to touch it for the time-being.
There was another announcement this morning,stating that there will be a poetry writing competition. I'm thinking of sending in the poem that I have put on this blog. Is it worth the try?? I'm not sure myself..
Anyway, I got to go and try to sleep. Update next time..
Last friday, my mum went to the school Parent-Teacher Meeting. My mum went to meet Mdm Foo, Miss Ang and Miss Chan. Well, all of them gave me pressure. More and more pressure~! Well, that is what makes up my life. I have no choice but to live with it..
On the way back, my mum asked me on the train when am I going to have a girlfriend. That took me by surprise because I didn't expect her to ask me this kind of question. Well, I just told her that it would not be that soon. I told her studies come first in order for me to secure my place in university. Actually, that triggered some of my sad memories but I couldn't show it so I pretended..
On wednesday, in the morning, we had our phototaking. TO CLARIFY THE MATTER, I DON'T LIKE ANY SINGLE ONE OF THE PS MEMBERS AND NEITHER DO I HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH THEM OK? LOL!! I think I have been mistaken by people to be some people who are desperate. LOL!! I'm perfectly normal and do not wish to be involved in such stuff. I didn't know when the photo was taken and guess what!? I didn't look at the camera at all. LOL!! GOing to be ugly again..
at the RJC, I fell asleep during the lecture simply because I was too tired. I couldn't keep my eyes open. Aaron had noticed that I was looking super lethargic in school. I could say that he was sharp. Maybe it was because I was back to the other self of mine where I didn't like to talk at all. I can be solemn and don't talk for the whole day. My temper at those times is really very bad. It may be due to the environment that I have grown up with in primary school. The motto is " You have to fight in order to survive." Well,it seems true as the scar that was caused by a stupid idiot will always be on my arm to remind me of this motto.
Today, I was caught by the PE teacher for having long hair. Well, I went to the barber and the auntie went to cut my hair until ... I was pissed. To add the fuel, my family called me the army boy. I was like... I shouldn't have went there.
I hate the MCP 1 and MCP 2. They are a bunch of pigs, or you guys can say worse than pigs. I hate them~! Now, I'm in JC so I have to change my way of dealing with things. I have to constanty remind myself that I cannot use those methods that I used in CCKSS in AJC. This school is so weird. Nothing exciting happens. Those two pigs think that they are group of smart-alexes and go round calling people names. They should have think of themselves to see what qualities of shit that they possess before calling people names.
My class suddenly seemed so interested to know who Kwok Hoe like and there was a huge commotion about it. As a friend, I will not betray him because I know what the feeling of being betrayed feels like as I have experienced it before. In my view, I think that it's best for him not to reveal it as he will regret if he does so. Well, this kind of relationship stuff is so complicated. I have promised not to touch it for the time-being.
There was another announcement this morning,stating that there will be a poetry writing competition. I'm thinking of sending in the poem that I have put on this blog. Is it worth the try?? I'm not sure myself..
Anyway, I got to go and try to sleep. Update next time..