I'm feeling quite disturbed about someone's message. Yea you maybe right in your own way,your simple logic of life but do u think that I want to? U don't have that kind of experience before that's why u can easily say that. U think that I'm blinding myself to think that I'm under great pressure but that's the fact. I received letters ask me to go for counselling. If U want me to think that I'm under not that great pressure, then I'm blinding myself. I never reveal anything to u about my family yet that's why u won't understand a single thing.

In school, I'm a so-called funny and cheerful joker but when I reach home, it's different. I'm completely different. U guys have all the parents' love that I don't have. You guys have all the freedom to do the things U want. I don't, not a single bit. Once I reach home, it's just another place for me to sleep and that's all. No other things. I never trust any single one of family members, much less to expect me to trust friends. That's where I grew up, home. U think it's easy for me to mix around?U think I like to say good things about the person and make a fool out of myself just in order to keep this so-called "friendship"?

Yea you are right that someone might be worse than me but all least they have someone to talk to. What about me? Talk to the wall? Talk to who? I don't trust anyone in the first place, who I talk to? All my so-called friends will become enemy and will take away lives when someone gives them some profits. Do I still dare to trust anyone?

I'm now barred from going to some area in S'pore or else I won't get to see the next sunrise. Do u think that I will try to myself feel good saying that I still can go to other areas in S'pore? Escape is all that I can do. So what you want me to do now? Continue to look on the bright side of life?Or be realistic?If u want to think that I'm talking rubbish and crap,U want to re-consider again. I mean it this time..

Sorry if I offended you in anyway..