Frustrated..
Today was another sulky day for me because I wasn't in a mood to do anything at all. Got back my chemistry paper. I was damn pissed with myself. I got a lot of answers right and I went to change it before I submitted my script. Up to the 2 questions, I already wasted 5marks. I couldn't imagine what I was doing at the examination hall. So angry over myself for making all those silly mistakes.
Econ teacher talked to me again regarding my econ grades. I'm already that upset that I had gotten a U for it. I really studied hard for it but she compared it to physics and said that I didn't put in the same amount of efforts for it. I studied for econ harder than any other subjects I took. I even sarcificed my h3 even though I had the possibility of dropping h3 if I never do well for mid-year. Haiz.. I already told myself to buck up on econ but it's just that I'm not cut out for humanities subjects. I tried my best to love it but I didn't know why I couldn't do well. I also wanted a reason for it instead she demanded a reason from me. Maybe I shouldn't have chosen econ in the first place or should I say I shouldn't have even chosen a JC in the first place. Haiz..
Tomorrow most probably we are getting back our gp papers. I know I never do well for the compre and my teacher told me it was an easy paper. Great now. I have problems even dealing with easy papers. So how am I going to survive in A level where prelim is just 7weeks away.
Teachers always like to compare things. In my case, they alway compare my grades to my strong subjects. I mean they are not called strong subjects for nothing. I absolutely hated it when they did comparison. It's not like we never tried to make everything equal. Who don't want all A? Haiz.. Why can't they understand us at all?
I think I'm losing my mental state but I'm hanging on because of a promise that I make. I'm tired. Soon maybe I won't be in class anymore. Maybe my nightmare will come true soon and I will leave the world. I don't know. Haiz..
Econ teacher talked to me again regarding my econ grades. I'm already that upset that I had gotten a U for it. I really studied hard for it but she compared it to physics and said that I didn't put in the same amount of efforts for it. I studied for econ harder than any other subjects I took. I even sarcificed my h3 even though I had the possibility of dropping h3 if I never do well for mid-year. Haiz.. I already told myself to buck up on econ but it's just that I'm not cut out for humanities subjects. I tried my best to love it but I didn't know why I couldn't do well. I also wanted a reason for it instead she demanded a reason from me. Maybe I shouldn't have chosen econ in the first place or should I say I shouldn't have even chosen a JC in the first place. Haiz..
Tomorrow most probably we are getting back our gp papers. I know I never do well for the compre and my teacher told me it was an easy paper. Great now. I have problems even dealing with easy papers. So how am I going to survive in A level where prelim is just 7weeks away.
Teachers always like to compare things. In my case, they alway compare my grades to my strong subjects. I mean they are not called strong subjects for nothing. I absolutely hated it when they did comparison. It's not like we never tried to make everything equal. Who don't want all A? Haiz.. Why can't they understand us at all?
I think I'm losing my mental state but I'm hanging on because of a promise that I make. I'm tired. Soon maybe I won't be in class anymore. Maybe my nightmare will come true soon and I will leave the world. I don't know. Haiz..