Today was such a moody day for me. I kinda of felt damn moody and affected by some of the comments. Haiz..
Mass Civics today was about career. I belonged to the group called Idealist. They said that the best job was those that I could help people. That's quite true. I always wanted to do this and the career that I wanted was also in the list, so I'm the normal type!!
I did my CWO with Rachel, Jin Ken and YongYuan at math tutorial. We were supposed to help out in the computer lab restructuring. JK and I carried monitors to some place near auditorium while rae and yy were in-charge of the computers in the lab. We asked that person. We did apologise to him but he still gave us that ogre at us. WTH! We had apologised for our actions. What the hell is wrong with him!? I'm more pissed now!! I hoped that my birthday wish will come true!! I will then open champagne and celebrate.
On my way back home, I met some teachers and chatted with them for a while. One of them told me that the whole Math department was talking about me non-stop. Not because I got good grades or what, they criticised me for making a lot of careless mistakes in my paper. They commented that I did sloppy work. I was damn angry about this which caused me to be so moody at the moment. It's not that I never put in an effort to do well. I have practised questions to solve this problem. I spent great amount of time practising but all that I got back was a few criticism. I knew I made careless mistakes and I'm very gulity about it too. It's not that I didn't care. You don't have to add on any more pressure. I know I need to perform up to expectations but I really need to have a break from those pressure. How does it feel to be criticise when you're not doing well? When I'm getting the results that they want, do I get any praise for that? NO!! Do you know how hurt I feel inside??
I'm very peichek about the term called "Friend". I never understand the true definition. People I called friends never contact me unless they have something that requires me to help. I just received a message not long ago asking me out to teach the person. When was I ever part of the fun?? What exactly I'm to you people?? Am I just another walking answer supplier?? I will be in a group when I'm needed like before exam, my phone kept on ringing and the messages came in like free then I will be kicked out when I'm no longer needed, just like now when exams are over,phone can be dumped. What am I to you all??
Moody..
Mass Civics today was about career. I belonged to the group called Idealist. They said that the best job was those that I could help people. That's quite true. I always wanted to do this and the career that I wanted was also in the list, so I'm the normal type!!
I did my CWO with Rachel, Jin Ken and YongYuan at math tutorial. We were supposed to help out in the computer lab restructuring. JK and I carried monitors to some place near auditorium while rae and yy were in-charge of the computers in the lab. We asked that person. We did apologise to him but he still gave us that ogre at us. WTH! We had apologised for our actions. What the hell is wrong with him!? I'm more pissed now!! I hoped that my birthday wish will come true!! I will then open champagne and celebrate.
On my way back home, I met some teachers and chatted with them for a while. One of them told me that the whole Math department was talking about me non-stop. Not because I got good grades or what, they criticised me for making a lot of careless mistakes in my paper. They commented that I did sloppy work. I was damn angry about this which caused me to be so moody at the moment. It's not that I never put in an effort to do well. I have practised questions to solve this problem. I spent great amount of time practising but all that I got back was a few criticism. I knew I made careless mistakes and I'm very gulity about it too. It's not that I didn't care. You don't have to add on any more pressure. I know I need to perform up to expectations but I really need to have a break from those pressure. How does it feel to be criticise when you're not doing well? When I'm getting the results that they want, do I get any praise for that? NO!! Do you know how hurt I feel inside??
I'm very peichek about the term called "Friend". I never understand the true definition. People I called friends never contact me unless they have something that requires me to help. I just received a message not long ago asking me out to teach the person. When was I ever part of the fun?? What exactly I'm to you people?? Am I just another walking answer supplier?? I will be in a group when I'm needed like before exam, my phone kept on ringing and the messages came in like free then I will be kicked out when I'm no longer needed, just like now when exams are over,phone can be dumped. What am I to you all??
Moody..